H20

I tell you, h20 is the only thing I'm about lately! I'm on shopping sabbatical at the moment so there's been no coffee, hardly any chocolate (all the chrissy stock has gone now) and no takeaways, and MY HEAD IS SCREAMING AT ME TODAY!

At first I thought I just hadn't had enough water as it's dang sunny and hot outside, and I've done quite a bit of exercise, but it's still here and I've realised it's the dreaded detox headache.

But that's ok... it means bad things are slowly but surely leaving my body, and goodness is what it's all about this year.

Yoga definitely helped to ease the tension, as did a walk along this cute little river I drove past today. I just had to stop and feel the breeze.

xx girl30*

Almost a year has passed..

It's almost been one year (minus 2 days) since the last time i was in hospital emergency with an overdose. Last Christmas life got on top of me. I'd just finished a job where the boss was hell on earth, I had a month's work in front of me, but nothing after that. I was tired, emotional, depressed and just didn't want to be depressed anymore.

I am so far from that place right now - but I will never look at suicidal people the same way.

I didn't want to kill myself, god no! But I wanted the pain to stop.

To explain this feeling to someone else - this utter helpless, tiring, feeling - is impossible. But I've been there - and if you are going through that right now, I am sending you good strong happy and healthy vibes.

Today, almost a year later, I have had a shocking day. Beyond words. But you know, I'll get up and move through it. and live to see another day. and smile..... or at least just live through it ;)

hugs to you all - no matter what you are going through xxx

ps - the pic is the view of my corkboard on my desk at work. Pics of friends and tidbits to make me smile. Cause we always need something to bring light to our faces : )

Blue

It's not been a fab day in the slightest. I am in a funk, and need to focus on happy smiley, things around me.

Like candles in the bathroom when I'm having a shower. Candles in general. Cups of tea. Lying on my bolster and breathing deeply. Early nights. And the blue sky on my drive home from work.

: )

girl30*

Summer in the City

I love that song by Regina Spektor. However, I'm not so much in love with the funk I'm in at the moment. Yes - big big funk.

So I'm embarking on a 2 week Health Challenge with a dear friend of mine, just 2 simple weeks to bring it all back to basics, chill out, eat healthy fresh foods and start moving my patooti (or is it cahooti? anyway...)

So the way to do it is to WALK in my lunch breaks, even if that means for 5 mins to get some fresh air. It will happen by having 3 gym sessions this week. And by having completely cut back takeaway. Home cooking all the way!

Sometimes it can all seem like way too much so I'm chilling out for a bit and focussing on just the next 2 weeks, then the world is my oyster.

xx girl30*

Shhhh take a peek

...into my takeaway filled fridge. No, not proud of the pizza boxes and empty fruit & vegie shelf, but sometimes life just gets in the way. eep!

xx girl30*

Jack, I miss you already

To the best dog in the whole world: enjoy being happy jackie... we love you, and miss you. Hope doggie heaven is full of chewie bones, big backyards and beach walks. xxx

xx girl30*

A Hip & Tranquil Weekend!

the weekend promises yoga, writing time, and some creative license thanks to unstructured time. i'm delighted. may you carve out some unstructured time this weekend to laugh, read, write, dance, and be. au revior. Kimberly Wilson, Hip Tranquil Chick

Oh how I’ve been falling into a little depression lately. I say ‘little’ because it’s nowhere near as major as I’ve suffered before, but it’s definitely creeping upon me. I can’t decide what to do (so instead, I just sleep all day), I can’t decide what to eat (so I don’t have anything) and that general blah feeling has settled. So it was perfect timing I read this beautiful quote above on Hip Tranquil Chick.

Today is Saturday and I spent the day sleeping, but tomorrow is the annual Newtown Festival and I am looking forward to breathing in some fresh air, catching the dogshow, and having lovely girly time with some friends. I still have some time to fill my weekend with some beauty, fun and dancing.

Perhaps I'll fit a yoga class in as well.... This is the pose of the month on my yoga calendar and while I have a strong practice, I think this pose is still a way off for me!!

STELLAAAAAAaaaaahh!

I love The Simpsons, and I have to laugh everytime I watch the episode where Marge stars in 'A Streetcar Named Desire'.

I was off sick yesterday with a horrific headache, and after sleeping all day was a bit mopey. Cabin fever had set in! But I turned on the TV at night, saw this episode, and a smile (albeit a small one) lit up my face.