Little Birdy

I have started a new photo challenge (to take 43 photographs of doors) so I can use my flash new digital camera more, and in the process, open my eyes to things around me, and scrub up on my skills.

So I've been checking out doors here and there and everywhere, and what do I come across? Right over the street from my work place, there's this gorgeous chalk-drawn little birdy on a door frame!

Too cute : )

xx girl30*

Beach Days

The thing I miss most about living where I do now, is the beach. I grew up by the water and just walking along the oceans edge every day was a beautiful, refreshing part of my life.

So when I went to visit my sister on the weekend, we went to the beach, went for a wander, and WOW - the fresh salty air, the breeze, the freedom, it completely made a big grin appear on my face. How I miss it!!!

xx girl30*

the thing which makes me smile the most

...is this little munchkin. I love you, Belle xxxx

Back to Basics

Homegrown fruit & veg, fresh from my nan's garden. How cute are the little capsicums? And how different does it all taste? Seriously, homegrown fruit and veg without all the pesticides - amazing.

xx girl30*

I'm hooked!

I am learning little LaLa's cries (I know her hungry cry) and man, has that girl's lungs grown!! She can cry enough to break your heart.

I am also pleased to say that I am not afraid to hold the precious little bub anymore : ) It's all about practice and now I'm getting the hang of it.

I'm so filled with sparkles and happiness!

xx girl30*

Christmas Eve in Summer

I'm down the coast enjoying some time away from Sydney, and very happy to be sharing this special festive season with my sister and her family. They even have a tree - which is something I lack!

Merry Christmas dear friends, sending plenty of sparkles to you and yours.

xx girl30*

Driving to Work

Australia is a multi-cultural society, and we're all brought up to believe in equality - even if the government programs and laws doesn't support this. So excited was I this morning, driving to work, to see an Aboriginal Flag hanging on a house.... that I had to take a pic of it!

Then no less than a minute later, a news story comes on the radio about how people are trying to ban a Muslim school opening up just out of Sydney.

And as a country targeted by terrorists, this is a firey issue!

What is the answer? There is no simple answer.... but rather, lots to think about.

Peace to you all,

xx girl30*

Almost a year has passed..

It's almost been one year (minus 2 days) since the last time i was in hospital emergency with an overdose. Last Christmas life got on top of me. I'd just finished a job where the boss was hell on earth, I had a month's work in front of me, but nothing after that. I was tired, emotional, depressed and just didn't want to be depressed anymore.

I am so far from that place right now - but I will never look at suicidal people the same way.

I didn't want to kill myself, god no! But I wanted the pain to stop.

To explain this feeling to someone else - this utter helpless, tiring, feeling - is impossible. But I've been there - and if you are going through that right now, I am sending you good strong happy and healthy vibes.

Today, almost a year later, I have had a shocking day. Beyond words. But you know, I'll get up and move through it. and live to see another day. and smile..... or at least just live through it ;)

hugs to you all - no matter what you are going through xxx

ps - the pic is the view of my corkboard on my desk at work. Pics of friends and tidbits to make me smile. Cause we always need something to bring light to our faces : )

Babe!

Little LaLa is growing up, and I'm in love : )

The best way to start the day

... is with a beautiful yoga class.


Teaching yoga is a true gift. Personally, I have always found it a struggle to do a home practice - I find that when being a student in a class I can just completely let myself go and immerse myself in my feelings and breath. But teaching is still wonderful because while I can't get carried away in meditation, I still get to stretch and breathe and MOVE!


And today I taught a beautiful class right in the middle of the City with the sun streaming into the studio.

Seriously - the BEST way to start you day : )
xx girl30*

Finding beauty in the little things

+ potplants in window sills

+ facials in the middle of the week for no reason

+ yummy salads for lunch

+ carrot, apple, ginger and beetroot freshly squeezed juices with ice, chill!

+ red shoes

+ hitting 'the wall' and realising I have the power to change how I feel

+ cancelling outings for a night, doing some washing, lighting some candles, fresh bedsheets, folded clothes and a smile

xx girl30*

Voyeur?

I adore going for a walk in the evenings - the sun is low, the weather is cool, and the pace has slowed down. You can peek into windows and watch people potter in their homes, you can hear dinner plates and pots and pans clang and clatter, and there is just this beautiful smell about summer evenings in Sydney.

Most Monday's I walk through Hyde Park between yoga classes and now that the lights are shining and christmas is close, it is as close to perfect as one can get in the middle of traffic and tall buildings!

Here's to finding a little bit of peace amongst the mayhem in your lives.
xx girl30*

The most gorgeous girl in the world

Somehow, this 1 day old treasure puts it all into perspective.

Pls send good and healthy vibes to little gem and her mum.

xx girl30*

Welcome little Luca Grace!

Today I became an aunty to gorgeous little Luca Grace, the most exquisite girl in the whole world. I will meet her tomorrow and I'm so happy : )

My sister is my best friend - W, I'm so proud of you. What a gorgeous little fam xxx

Happy Day!

THANK YOU to my gorgeous friends and family. I actually came home after my birthday dinner this evening - and cried. They were joyous, greatful and happy tears, because I am so very lucky.

The last 10 years of my life have been, on the whole, a constant battle with depression, interspersed with happy random moments. It's been tiring. Bloody tiring!!

But I can actually see that I am moving through this - and the people I spent my birthday today with (either in physical contact with or via the phone and email), well, I love you guys. I truly am blessed to still have these gorgeous people around me in the happy times (like yesterday), especially after they've been there in perhaps the most dark periods of my life.

For you all I am truly so thankful. Bless ya, you all rock : )
xx girl30*

A big day such as today clearly required a scrumptious

breakky at the beach with my family! (pic above)